Beautifully Broken

YAY!! I figured out my password!

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 05:00:22 GMT

you won't believe how long i've been sitting infront of the puter trying to figure out my damn password lol I haven't written in here in so long cause I've been busy with Curves..I finally took over and since Aug i've been the owner. I feel like i'm being pushed over, that no one takes me seriously as a boss..maybe its because of my age i don't know..It's just so much so fast..i'm also trying to finish school. I guess I have to just learn to be tough but I don't think I am..

I've been just staying busy with that..my life has become my work now..I make sure everyone is happy..I make sure they are on top of reaching their goals..but I was thinking tonight..what about my goals? What about my happiness? Everyone around me seems to be having kids or getting married...no I don't want to get married now or have a child but lately that is all that is pushed on me..have a kid!! get married!! What about love? What ever happened to love? I don't think i've ever been in love..I think i had it once a long time ago but that's it..so what about it? shouldn't I find love before marriage and kids? don't love lead to all that? Why am I the weird one for not being married or having a kid..

Seems like married people don't want to hang out with single people..so yeah lately I feel like a disease or something cause the people i did hang with just got married and two of my friends are having kids..I get yelled at that i'm working too much to even have time to find anyone..

I think for now i'm just going to find myself..i'm happy with foxxy lol

HUMP DAY!

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 15:25:50 GMT

YES!! half the week is over and the weekend is almost near!! Just sucks I have to work tonight..but sometimes the ladies are a blast..they remind me of the golden girls and I used to love that show as a kid lol

I had a dream last night that I was fighting off vampires. Hmmm zombies one night, vampires the next? I haven't been watching any horror films or anything lately so I don't know whats going on lol oooo maybe I'm the chosen one who knows lol

ok gonna get weighed in then i'm off to work YAY

hmmm

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 05:43:30 GMT

ok this is my 3rd journal since my break up with Nick..he was so nice enough to let his new girl in on my journal..i guess its my fault i should of changed the password when he redid my last one..but i guess that's me being so trusting..dumb girl..UGH i hate when i do that..

other then that still waiting to hear something from TX why is it taking them so long! I need a vacation so bad its not even funny and lately i keep having the wierdest dreams..seriously its time for me to go away

I keep forgetting to call Jackie too..nice friend i am right? I just feel like i'm being pulled into so many directions right now that i don't even know where to go..between work, my last semister, family drama, my own drama i feel like i'm going to explode..so i guess this is where you come in right? so i can vent it all away

i'm pushing for a vacation in july i don't care what my boss says..

Atleast I have two things to look foreward to this weekend..Friday after work Ethan's got a show in WP and that should be interesting..I haven't met his new drummer but on the radio they sounded great..its just gonna be hard closing early..doing my bank deposits..and rushing to get there..but i'm gonna be picture lady so i gotta remember to bring my stuff with me..then sunday i have dance class of course..but god that one lady and her daugther are driving me nuts..i hate people who touch my hair..don't ask me why i just don't know..especially if there complete strangers..i hate when people just come up to me, grab a chunk of my hair and yank on it to see if its real..umm YES!! can't you hear me going ow!!!

but i'm doing the dance class for me so fuck what other people think or say..its about time I start taking care of myself and making myself happy.

ok that's about it..going to bed..

Dear Diary

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 02:41:34 GMT

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep
them
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've
done

I've been a bad, bad girl for so long
I don't know how to change what went wrong
Daddy's little girl when he went away
What did it teach me? That love leaves

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep
them
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've
done

I've been down every road you could go
I made some bad choices as you know

Seems I have the whole world cradled in my hands
But its just like me not to understand

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep
them
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

I learned my lessons
I turned myself around
I've got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder

She's been watching over me

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep
them
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep
them
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

I've been a bad, bad girl